rotting at home :D

today is like monday still got like 6more days to school start. nothing much just missing jeremy badly and love him to the maximum until no words to say. morning as usual follow mother go eat breakfast and then wait for eaden to end school. after that headed back home rest after that then wait for my sister siew yen to end school. so today nothing stay at home and rest. other than that nothing else i can do at home facebook, blog watch show and nothing else. really very bored but when school start i think i want to sleep already. because too use to at home already. how ? how ?! but never mind this kind of things can overcome slowly. as long as i got things to do can already just so call waste my 2years in higher nitec doing nothing, depend on how i perform.

what happen ?

don't know what happen to my mum, i know i am in wrong but the problem is that she don't need to be like this right. can talk me nicely what, why must she shout shout. i think she don't even need me already, just want to stay in her own life. i don't know why if i go work, she will not be like this one. i think she cannot always see me at home she will confirm mad at me. at least once in awhile see each other she will treat me good. if that the case i think i will go work already like this don't need always so heart pain. just don't know what wrong with her. forever like this the, she cannot talk nicely one. must use yell one then later say like as if she owe us. she give birth just to come this world to torture her. if she too mad she will say later take chopper to chop us off. i really don't know what to do, just thinking that she don't need me anymore. just feeling sad, just only never do housework only know how to eat, sleep, slack and whatever that can comment me as lazy.

counting down :D

currently counting down to my 19th birthday :D this year will be quite bored but is okay. he will repay me during our 15th month anniversary, can't wait for the day to come. seriously don't have him around with me no movie, no outing, nothing. just stay home slack, accompany my mum wherever she want to go. i think i also very long never accompany already, so take this time to accompany her more. if not later she nag at people say that her daughter got boyfriend don't want her already, *Laugh. she is quite a understanding mother but sometime i can't take the attitude that she give me. but i still understand that whatever she do to me is for my own good. just don't want me to follow her footsteps, she want me to have happiness so she will always remind me this and that. must be careful, don't believe him too much, let him fall deeply then i do and many more. no matter next time what kind of life i have i will still thanks my mum that never give up on me at all. she always support whatever things i do, if wrong she will tell me and i will learn from my mistake. i will really cherish my life time with her, i can say out loud that my mother is the best and can't find the same mother like her that she really take good care of me. no matter how naughty i am she will try to understand me, give into me. sometime i feel guilty because i always blame on her this and that. but i promise i will never ever throw alone when she grow old. no matter i am rich or poor next time i will still take good of her, and let her leave in a comfortable family. i want to cherish all the memory that i have with her, if not next time i will confirm regret. and god will confirm punish me if i not filial to my mother, because she suffer alot since i am a baby. i really will salute my mother and thanks for not selling me to others people and feed me until now. i love you mummy :D