Thinking of him (+)

got abit of quarrel with heartheart today but is not i want. i just wondering whether is it i must spent alot of time with him and don't do my things ? because the way he talk is always like as if my fault to go for my things like that. i really can let him make until i very confuse. if i say that to him, he will like say that i think too much this and that. then what can i do ? anyone can tell me ? i know he is serving NS now, but i can't always accompany him and neglect all my friends right ? i just don't know why, is it because i spent too much time with him makes me that all my friends just thinks that i don't care about them, always say that after i had a boyfriend i change. i really don't know at all. anyone can tell me ? sometime is it my fault to neglect my friends and always spent time with my boyfriend ? i really cannot manage my time well don't which one to come first and which one not important. why i have chose my boyfriend in the first is because after he was with me. he have stop going to his gathering. that why i always think that he can because of me so called lose so many true friends, so i should do like him. i just really don't am i doing the right things or wrong things. i don't think anyone can help me at all, because my heart and mind don't even know what they want and they are so confuse just want to give up everything in her life. and just enjoy and stay happy always. i really think alot of things today but this kind of life really forever challenging and need to learn to face it and overcome. i must show people that i not that weak i can do it :D