miss him badly (!)

i want to tell you how miserable i am today but in order not to let you not focus on army. i will keep all this things until the day you book out. i think i got plenty of things want to tell you. really without you by my side, i feel that my life is sucks and this year really not my year got so many problem one after the other one. i really breakdown, you confirm know how i feel when people any accuse about the things that i never do. at that point i really want a shoulder to lean against but no one so decided to go and take a nap. really hope that guys don't need to go national service. i really don't know why my life is like this, is it my mum last time naughty her daughter not smart enough so that she can bully me is it ? i really need you by mine side. but i need face the fact that you service NS. so i just wait for you to book the day. loveee youu, really cannot live without you if not i think i will die man. really hope that time really can fly faster, i think i not going to grandma house anymore even though is chinese new year. i will rather stay at home and don't want their angbao. miss you badly, but do take care of yourself. i will wait for you no matter what, you are my only one :D