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what is family about ? i really don't know. just that to me family is just nothing, is just simply eat sleep and place to hide. to me i think i got a father or don't have no different. because my real father don't want me, when i was like about 1 year old having a very high fever he don't even bother bring me go give doctor see. i can just say that i am lucky that god save me and my brain almost get damage. all this things really thanks to my real father. after that my mum remarry because her friend keep ask her to give a proper family to stay. okay then my mum remarry i got a stepfather. so no different, the only things is good about it is that he don't have much money but can feed me until now. after that my mum give birth to a younger sister for me. then things change he more pamper more on her daughter then me. so what if he feed since i was like in kindergarten. he don't even know what i want, i just want a simple family and hope that he can treat me and my sister equally. but never mind, it have been like 18years already. and i am going to turn 19years old after that wait for another 2years i will be independent. i will stop letting him to control me. the way he treat me is just like adopting me, don't need to care so much. don't care about how people feeling just say in front of the person those nasty words. i have more then enough about this things, but no choice also because of my mum. i don't want her because of me become unhappy, i want her to be happy every single day. in this the only person that will treat me good and really care for me are my mum and grandma before i met jeremy. they really is very important to me if anyone dare to touch them or bully i will confirm go settle with the person. i will not care whether they are whoever they have no right to judge at me except both of them. they are the one that really care for me, they understand me and courage me to go for it if i think it is correct. they will definitely give me their moral support. not like my stepfather, just don't know why other people stepfather treat her damn good. not like mind, just only will spend money on her own daughter. not even my mum can step in. to me he is just nothing, he just like a uncle that support me on everything because my mum not working so everything is him who hard earn all the money. as for this i will confirm repay me when i grow up, but after clear so called the debt i will just ignore him. and continue to support my mum life. because she is the most important to me. no one can take over except jeremy ong bee teck. he is the guy that really care me alot and make me can really depend on him trust him. before he came into my life, i was just independent and stand alone. really thanks god for giving me such a good boyfriend i will definitely cherish it well.

will continue blog tomorrow because i too tired.